Living with multiple sclerosis is like a box of chocolate. You never know how it will affect you the next minute, hour, or day. I refuse to let MS control my life...what about YOU.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Loosing Your Grip Can Be Painful
I noticed a week ago when I was washing dishes that my right hand could not hold a grip...it came and went through out that day. I thought it was in my head and pushed it out of my mind. It was wishful thinking… the reality of my right hand loosing its gripping motion became a reality in the worse way.
I was curling my hair Monday night because I had an early morning doctor’s appointment. I was wearing one of my thin nightgowns with a plunging neckline and spaghetti straps. Yes, I believe in going to bed looking and feeling sexy. Looking and feeling sexy went out the window when I lost my grip on the curling irons, I could not move fast enough; the hot irons hit me on my chest near my right under arm.
I immediately felt the pain and burning, I did not see a mark by the time I went to bed so I thought I had escaped being burnt. It was a job to finish curling my hair, but to keep from being hit with the curling irons incase I lost my grip again, I put on a robe to cover my expose skin. I woke up the next morning and saw that I was SCARRED; I went to my scheduled doctor appointment. I had to reveal that I lost my gripping motion AGAIN and I showed her my scar, she revealed to me that my scar was a second-degree burn. I also got that pitiful look from her; I hate that look. To me that look is telling you sh*t is changing for you.
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My hands starting loing it about 18
years; matter of fact I am seeing an OT about a brace for more of my left hand fingers. For years I couldn't toe with both hands at work, thn they relapsed for many years, except for my left pinkie. Then my wedding ring fing began to stiffen/curl- got a ridculous brace for it in 2005(I posted about it)---you have time...try not to get too down, just MS, until tere is a cure/fix--we have to dig deep and love ourselves, MS is now a part of you and me. Embrace, love, focus all you have not the losses. You are a strong woman.
And see all the typos? Grrr
losing not loing
type not toe
then not thn
finger not fing
there not tere
Grrrr, but that's life.
Diane,
Yes, I am a strong woman, but it is getting difficult, I am barely holding on.
I had another accident today and I am falling fast into that "D" tunnel. I am trying to handle my emotions about my circumstances without seeking help, but a strong woman also need to know when to admit she need help.
I NEED HELP… I will be back soon.
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